Look at Me

When I was a little girl, from the time I was in kindergarten until I was in sixth grade, I was on a Junior Jaguar cheer squad with all my friends. We had practice once a week and cheered for football players our age on Saturdays. But once a year, we got to do a clinic with the High School Cheerleaders and perform with them at a football game. That was the cat's meow. Just the way they talked and walked, I didn't know what the word classy meant at the time but if I had, that's what I would have said they were. They were every dream of mine combined and more.

I kept cheering through middle school on both KC Cheer and my school's cheer squad. When it came time for me to try out and live out my dream, I was wearing a boot to protect the ankle I had broken two weeks earlier. But I did everything I could and tried out with every ounce of cheerleader I had in me. But I did not make the team, and I was devestated. I cheered for KC Cheer for one more year and injured my back with a bulging disc at our very last competition.

But, after a year off, I tried out again for my school's cheer squad and made Varsity my first year. I love it more than anything. Last night we had Friday Night Lights with the little girls, and I realized that they look up to me and my team more than anything. We were probably the only people that existed at that point in time, I remember how it was. Now that I'm done writing my novel, here's my point:
It is the best feeling to look down at a little girl that you used to be, and know that she has that same dream that you do. There's nothing better than knowing that you are the role model of a girl somewhere. You don't know how good it feels until you have done what's right to be in that position.

So here's what I'm getting at, if you inspire a child or anyone, really, you deserve to be at the top of the world. But you can't get there by doing what you've always done. You have to go out of your way. Be that girl that steps up and says "I'm going to go the right path and help." or "This is not the right thing to be doing, I'm stepping away from this situation for good."

Be that girl that little girls will look up at you and say "I want to be just like you." It doesn't necessarily come easily, But making that positive reputation for yourself will pay off more than you can imagine in the long run, I am still struggling with changing who I am and how I behave, it's the hardest thing to do.

My Dad says that the definition of insanity is to keep doing the same thing but expecting different results. Going out with your friends every weekend isn't going to bring you any closer to your family. Continuing to be that girl at school who steps out of the box, does the right thing with no intention of drama or trouble, that's a path to follow.

It does not however, come with changing how you like or the things you like, it may have something to do with the people you hang around, I have changed plenty of that in the past couple years and now, I have to 2 best friends a girl could ask for. I have girls that look up to me and people that know me for positive reasons.

As my man Tim Mcgraw says, "I ain't as good as I'm gonna get, but I'm better than I used to be." It will take some time, but the rewards are sweeter than the temporary high in the present.

But remember, You're a Beauty Queen, with a beautiful soul. Now go find it!